[Funny she should say that when the people he seems most attracted to are those often considered train wrecks by others. Some might liken that to his propensity for fixing things, but that couldn't be further from the truth. As far as Josuke is concerned, there are simply some things in this world that are better for their flaws, and people are one of them.]
Hey, slow down. You gotta gimme a chance to respond.
[Not that he knows what to say, only that he needs to say something. Anything that might bring her sobbing to a halt, that might lift her spirits again and reassure her that this is a thing they can work together through. That it's worth it to try.
In fact, it's one of the most worthwhile things Josuke has come across in a long time.]
I don't think you're being fair talking like this. I mean, you seem to be forgetting how often you gotta deal with my shit, too. I don't exactly make things easy for you, Hazel. I'm just as much of a train wreck in my own way...but I can't say I've ever met a person who wasn't one that was as worth knowing as you are.
Whether it's just as friends or...whatever, you know? I wouldn't give any of it up.
[for a moment or two his response just makes her cry harder. it's her natural reaction to heartfelt compliments exacerbated by her current emotional weakness, and the sound would be comical if it were any time but now. when Hazel does finally manage to speak, her voice is still thick with not-tears.]
Alright, I take it back - you are an idiot.
[she chokes it out with a watery laugh, trying to throw something light out in the midst of everything else. it's stupid and flimsy, but it provides a divider between her outburst and what she's going to say next. Hazel wants these words to stand on their own, not be overshadowed by the dark things in her own mind. it was important in some stupid symbolic way that she herself doesn't really understand.]
...but I want to try.
[she looks up at him now, meets his gaze and holds it. there's a veritable sea of uncertainties sloshing around her, but this? it isn't one of them. Hazel is so sure of what she feels, what she wants, that she can look him in the eyes without a hint of embarrassment or shame.
her hands, which had fallen to her side and balled up into tight little fists in some vain attempt to protect herself, fall open. she brings one of them up to rest on his chest now, seeking out that beating heart one more time. maybe it wasn't selfish. maybe, just once (just when it matters most) she can let herself stop running and be happy.
honestly, she can't think of anyone better to make that exception for.]
[If this were any other time, Josuke might tease Hazel, but because it's now, with the both of them having just ridden another emotional roller coaster together? He's feeling a lot more sensitive and like the good friend he can be (instead of the massive shit he often is) now that he's got a good reason.]
I've been called worse, you know.
[And he means it, he has been. But in the end, names are just words, and the only words that've got sting enough to cause him any worry are Echoes'. In fact, being called an idiot by Hazel has actually come to feel a lot more endearing than insulting over time, especially now with it acting as the divider that it is.
Because what comes after? Well, it really makes Josuke smile.
Whatever this is, Hazel wants to try. That's all he could really ask for, to be honest. And just like that, she's given him exactly what he'd hoped for without knowing for the longest time that he'd even had a hope for it at all! Kind of a strange feeling, but not unpleasant now that the sharp edge of anticipation has been blunted.]
I'm glad that's your answer, though. 'Cause I wanna try, too.
[she can't help saying it, even if the incredulous laughter that accompanies it is meant more for the situation at hand. it feels surreal in the best way, like someone's lifted a weight she didn't know she was carrying. this was going to be as troublesome as anything else they'd gotten into, but they'd be facing it together. nothing even a pair of dumbasses couldn't handle.]
I tried to warn you, so any bullshit that happens is your fault now.
[she's teasing, impossibly gentle, and more than a little bit of a cover for her next action. with a little rock of her heels she tiptoes up to kiss that wonderful smile - lightning fast, done before she can lose her nerve. it's fine to do that now, right..?]
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Hey, slow down. You gotta gimme a chance to respond.
[Not that he knows what to say, only that he needs to say something. Anything that might bring her sobbing to a halt, that might lift her spirits again and reassure her that this is a thing they can work together through. That it's worth it to try.
In fact, it's one of the most worthwhile things Josuke has come across in a long time.]
I don't think you're being fair talking like this. I mean, you seem to be forgetting how often you gotta deal with my shit, too. I don't exactly make things easy for you, Hazel. I'm just as much of a train wreck in my own way...but I can't say I've ever met a person who wasn't one that was as worth knowing as you are.
Whether it's just as friends or...whatever, you know? I wouldn't give any of it up.
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Alright, I take it back - you are an idiot.
[she chokes it out with a watery laugh, trying to throw something light out in the midst of everything else. it's stupid and flimsy, but it provides a divider between her outburst and what she's going to say next. Hazel wants these words to stand on their own, not be overshadowed by the dark things in her own mind. it was important in some stupid symbolic way that she herself doesn't really understand.]
...but I want to try.
[she looks up at him now, meets his gaze and holds it. there's a veritable sea of uncertainties sloshing around her, but this? it isn't one of them. Hazel is so sure of what she feels, what she wants, that she can look him in the eyes without a hint of embarrassment or shame.
her hands, which had fallen to her side and balled up into tight little fists in some vain attempt to protect herself, fall open. she brings one of them up to rest on his chest now, seeking out that beating heart one more time. maybe it wasn't selfish. maybe, just once (just when it matters most) she can let herself stop running and be happy.
honestly, she can't think of anyone better to make that exception for.]
Whatever this is, I want to try.
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I've been called worse, you know.
[And he means it, he has been. But in the end, names are just words, and the only words that've got sting enough to cause him any worry are Echoes'. In fact, being called an idiot by Hazel has actually come to feel a lot more endearing than insulting over time, especially now with it acting as the divider that it is.
Because what comes after? Well, it really makes Josuke smile.
Whatever this is, Hazel wants to try. That's all he could really ask for, to be honest. And just like that, she's given him exactly what he'd hoped for without knowing for the longest time that he'd even had a hope for it at all! Kind of a strange feeling, but not unpleasant now that the sharp edge of anticipation has been blunted.]
I'm glad that's your answer, though. 'Cause I wanna try, too.
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[she can't help saying it, even if the incredulous laughter that accompanies it is meant more for the situation at hand. it feels surreal in the best way, like someone's lifted a weight she didn't know she was carrying. this was going to be as troublesome as anything else they'd gotten into, but they'd be facing it together. nothing even a pair of dumbasses couldn't handle.]
I tried to warn you, so any bullshit that happens is your fault now.
[she's teasing, impossibly gentle, and more than a little bit of a cover for her next action. with a little rock of her heels she tiptoes up to kiss that wonderful smile - lightning fast, done before she can lose her nerve. it's fine to do that now, right..?]